Shift. Shine. Inspire.
Who will give me permission to shine? My whole life as long as I could remember I had this ever present, unseen, unconscious feeling that I had to have permission from something, someone to let myself be seen, to shine, to get big, to follow my dreams and create and do what was my calling. Yet I didn’t quite know what my calling was or know that I was even waiting for permission.
One day about 9 years ago I was sitting in a huge hotel auditorium in Burlingame, California near the San Francisco Airport. I was a real estate agent and attempting to build my small empire of real estate sales. In this two day seminar we were being shown how to manage our lives, our business and most importantly how to bring in clients, keep clients and make them happy. We learned minute details from what color our flyers should be for maximum visibility, how to make a weekly schedule to have successful time management, what kind of questions to ask… some good stuff, yet I found much of it boring. Then the last day, in the last hours we got to what lit me up. You know that time of a big seminar they typically evoke inspiration, joy, hope? So in our folders tucked in the side flap was a card with a poem on it. We were asked to get that out and read it. In that moment tears started to build in my eyes, my body took a deep breath in and out and I was inspired. I felt a bell ring inside and I resonated with it. This lit me up! This is what I wanted. This feeling. This knowing that I could shine and I was allowed to, I had permission. To hear that I didn’t need to wait for anyone to tell me it was ok. And not only was it Ok, but most interestingly to me was that by me shining others would have permission! You mean that I can help others shine, I can give them permission? Whoa! This is good stuff. This is what I want in my life. What am I doing here in a real estate? It’s not lighting me up. What can I do with my life that is about THAT good stuff?
Fast forward almost 9 years. Here I am. Tingling energy rushes through me now as I write this simultaneously experiencing that moment of aha 9 years ago and feeling where I am today and seeing where I am, how far I’ve come. Tears of gratitude. I am sitting in my Berkeley kitchen on my laptop inspiring music running in my living room. My beloved, Tahil, partner in life and business of nearly 6 years doing his work in our bedroom. We are about to open up a new workshop center that is all about heart based workshops and trainings that offer skills and resources for having more love and light in life and relationships. I am sitting in front of people daily to inspire, influence, and offer them support in creating the lives they want. I do this through teaching yoga, writing our book, coaching clients and creating a center full of inspiring offerings for healthy, vibrant, and love filled lives. And this lights me up. This feels good. And it’s my life.
I took the path that came before me, one hint, one poem, one therapy session, one coaching session, one yoga class, one training, one breakdown, one breakthrough, one aha, one decision at a time. It wasn’t an easy path. Much muck was waded through, old defiant patterns dug up, dissected and eventually loved, upgraded or let go. I let go of a lot. And I’ve learned so much. There is so much gratitude. It’s not easy to stand up to old grooves of family patterning and social stigmas. And I did it, still often looking around for permission… Can I do this? Really it is OK. I am doing it. I give myself permission. I do it. And so it is.
And so now, here I write, here I stand. Shining.
What was that poem that I read back nine years ago?
Here it is, you probably know it. If you do you know it, you know that it never ends to inspire. If you haven’t, let me introduce you. Either way. Enjoy:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ― Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles”
Thank you for reading this post. I am honored to be seen in this way as a writer. And in whatever way you are inspired or what you notice when you read my writing or this precious poem from Marianne Williamson, I welcome you to share, write to me, post a comment. For when we share, we allow a piece of us to shine, be seen and inspire another.
If you’d like to learn more about the offerings that are coming to the new workshop and training center “Heart Source” in Berkeley, please visit www.heartsource.center. Tahil and I are super happy and excited to shine here and offer space for others to shine even brighter. Grand Opening is February 2016.
Shine bright. Love fearlessly.
Much love and light,